Rocking up to a gig to find the lead singer of Taxiride playing my jam @barneychester #noughties #classic #live #music #aussie #jasonsingh
Do you like my socks #fashion #shoes #sandals #socks #melbourne #splattter #dye #style
I’m at that turning point where I just crave fruit and vegetables. #ormaybeitsthesunnyweather #unilife
Cake, costume shopping and more cake! - The way to start my last week here. #sneakyintern #happybirthday #thankyouforbeingborn
Where does one start in planning an adventure trip?
Buying a one-way ticket?
This Farby Kina Grannis
The last few months has seem to throw me off balance. The strenuous schedule I had became an excuse to loosen my grip on everything: My study rhythm, eating habits, health, relationships, economic expenditure, faith - everything was slowly being pulled apart.
Then, I guess it came to no surprise that I found myself unmotivated, uninspired and doubtful once again. I questioned everything and everyone and lost sight of purpose for the causes I was making. The responsibility I had initially jumped at the chance of having suddenly grew into this great wall that towered over me, and I just wanted to turn and run. I seriously thought, I had bitten off more than I could chew and I was worried that I was being found out.
After coming back from a good break last week, it hit me - I have come such a long way already. How can I possibly give up now? I am down to my last 2 weeks of semester and university, and my last week for my internship. I only have 2 major assignments to go - and they are going to be killers - but I have to finish strong.
And in one month, I will have my final exam - just 2 hours long - and then I will be freeeeeeeee-er.
Although it’s been a patchy last few months of highs and lows, there is still the last few months to go and achieve this year’s determinations and resolutions.
Getting back into a healthier lifestyle is proving difficult though. I seemed to have undone the progress from Autumn and Winter over this semester. Sadly, Spring may never get to meet that more physically toned version of myself. But if I start turning things around now, Summer may still have its chance. It is a long way back up that hill where I had peaked earlier in the year.
Neglecting my studies has become a sore point on the list. It is what I am least looking forward to correcting because I know it is going to hurt. Potentially some late nights coming ahead - if I am good.
On the career horizon, I was panicking a little at how empty and sparse it was. But now I have this great opportunity to prove myself next month. It will be my first interview for a full-time job - something that seems so grown up and far-fetched, it sends shivers down my spine just thinking about it. It is this time that I am so thankful for the prolonged graduation. Because I was no where near an adult last year - let alone this year lol. But at least now, I know how to fake it - until I make it.
My plans for summer are looking very empty all of a sudden. I just can’t seem to figure it out. Quite a few of my friends have all these plans lined up and I almost feel left out. I am wondering whether I am up to the challenge - to travel alone. I don’t know where, or for how long, but it seems like the perfect opportunity to learn more about myself before really diving into adulthood and the working life.
But the amount of disturbing things that is on the news lately, it will be hard to convince anyone to let me go alone. Convincing myself is hard enough! But if I am doubting myself, is it really a good idea for me to go for it?
As I have decided - I will never be ready for anything. It is all down to how quickly I can adapt. These sorts of challenges will truly test me and there is no better time to do that than now.
In terms of keeping my wallet in check, I don’t think I have been doing too badly. But I have not been checking much on my balances too much lately. The plus side of this, is that I am not a prisoner of money, and I am living life for the experiences and investing in to the person I was to become. I hardly spend on materialistic things - just a lot on music, food and social events.
My social life has not deteriorated too much over the semester funny enough. Although I am really keen to make new friends, I still have a huge tendency to stick with what I already know. I am not too good at keeping in contact with people and this makes establishing new friendships a bit tricky for me. Also, I really want to get to know people outside of the circle of friends I already know, just to shake things up a little. But I am certain that it requires me to really stretch myself outside of my comfort zone. Maybe I’ll have to start a new social sport or something. Gah, I suck at sports though… Otherwise I will have to make some friends at work… Or start talking to strangers at parties… Gah…
There’s a number of things on my mind. And I see so much potential for amazing things but the thought of them never eventuating upsets me. I really have to back to having faith that I am using the utmost wisdom in creating those causes that will lead me there.
This period has proven how important consistency is. And that the battle for happiness is an ongoing feat, not an end result. But at least I can find comfort in that my efforts are never wasted, no matter how minuscule they may seem to others or at a particular time. Ganbatte!
Still so much unexplored territory! First time on Alamein train and I had no idea there was a Burwood Station (only suspected) #melbourne #spring #newhorizons